Truth: I am not alone...and neither are you.

the enemy is a jerk face liar.

long story short:  i hit a low recently.  a very low low.  i'm not sure i've ever felt so down and discouraged in my life.  but i did.  (and it wasn't a "one and done" kind of moment....it's been an ongoing feeling that sort of took a nose dive....)(but before you even start, there's no need to worry...i'm ok! i promise).

and in the midst of it i felt so alone....

photo by lee heywood

i wanted to share what i was dealing with  - i wanted to be real and vulnerable and authentic (because i love those things and they matter to me and that's what i long for from others!)....

but in that place of sadness and discouragement, i felt that i couldn't share what i was dealing with with anyone. i thought i would be judged...or thought less of...or given cliche responses (which actually aren't all that bad sometimes - i should apologize to cliches for being so hard on them)...

i thought i would be misheard or repeated (and repeated incorrectly at that)...

i thought...

BUT THEN (don't you love those words)

God said, "come on, dianna...you can share.  you can be real.  they won't judge.  just share...."

so i did.  with one friend...

and then with another....and as God prompted, i emailed another and another....in varying degrees, i asked them to pray for me...

and all of a sudden i had a friend praying for me in New York...and one in Texas...and one in Madagascar...and one in Columbus...and one in England....and one in North Carolina...

and something broke.

and there has been relief and release and BETTER (another word i love) (not to mention a flood of Truth, encouragement, life and love in my inbox and in my life)

and i think it has to do with the fact that i chose to listen to TRUTH rather than the enemy's lies.

the jerk face liar wants us to feel like we're alone.  that we can't share.  that we can't be real.  no one will understand.  you will be judged.  they'll think less of you.

that wasn't the case... (but even if it was, um...so what?)

there is power in obedience...there is power in prayer.  i don't understand it - but i trust it.  i trust the One who is hearing those prayers -- and i trust the ones who are praying those prayers.

and i am grateful.  honestly, i don't think the "down and discouraged" is over for me (i wonder if it ever will be this side of Perfection...) - but i'm grateful for the better....

and i'm grateful for the truth that i am not alone...and neither are you.

(and if you feel like you're alone, feel free to email me.... diannacash@yahoo.com)