Andrew.

He would have been 7 today.

I wonder what he would have looked like.
I wonder what his personality would have been like.
I wonder what it would be like to have 2 sons.
I wonder what would be different about our lives had he lived.

I wonder...

February 23, 2008...Andrew's birthday.

Today we celebrate a little boy we never had the privilege of truly knowing...a little boy we never rocked to sleep....a little boy we never celebrated milestones with...a little boy that has gotten a head start on heaven (and sometimes i'm quite envious of that) - today we remember and celebrate him and trust that his life was perfectly planned and ordained by our God who loves us so very much.

Thank you, God, for the gift of Andrew...for the gift of grief...for the gift of the process of losing the very thing we were hoping most for...for the gift of being able to trust you more...for the gift of heaven...for the gift of the Body of Christ that was so faithful to love and support and walk through this with us (I can still feel Your arms around us through them)....for the gift of knowing your presence and your peace in more ways than ever before...for the gift of life - no matter how short.